Tech Creepiness!!!

So Tumblr is doing this weird thing where it reblogs posts I've put up here without my putting them into Tumblr...How?? Why?? WTF even??!! I am creeped out - somebody please explain!

ROAD TRIP!

So i did a 3 day drive from Joburg to Cape Town.  I couldn't do the longer, scenic version because I am so broke right now but I did manage to get some fun pics all the same.

Reflections

So this blog is getting a revamp.  I've been trickling through the private bits of me, trying to keep it all 'professional.'  I'm discovering that I'm not capable of that.  So this blog is turning, right now, into a celebration of me, my work, my love, my passion - otherwise honestly it may as well just shut down.

So the changes in the past few months have been major.  I moved cities.  I'm living in Cape Town now and OMG I love it with every particle of my soul.  This place is beautiful - heartrendingly beautiful.  Since beginning to travel I've been so lucky to see the truly miraculous places in the world - and yet even as their beauty overwhelms me I'm reminded again and again that HOME is where LOVE is - it could be a dry little town in the Karoo or the lush mountains and forests of Mpumalanga.  If there is no love where you are then it all might as well be ash.

I'm back at school and working too - its intense I cannot lie.  Juggling the two - as well as finding time to write and work on Fierce and start up all the other millions of ideas I have is going to be a challenge - but its one I feel ready for.

I'm studying Gender Studies and Transformation - AT LAST!!!  And I love it! LOL! I'm loving a lot lately!  I live in this tiny little bachelor flat - just bought myself these glorious striped burgandy curtains and the entire place is just beginning to feel like mine.  I miss my family and friends like burning.  That's been hard - but what keeps me going is knowing that the way I was - that closed in, lonely, frustrated woman I was becoming, could not love them the way they deserve to be loved.  I must find peace - I must have adventure! And it's so good to be living what I've been dreaming for so damn long.

Tumblr has been a revelation.  Meeting young, fat women  - feminists, lovers of beauty and race and variety - fearless, glorious creatures.  Meeting these women on Tumblr has meant so much to me...I can't put this in words right now.  I will.  I will soon.

And finally a picture - after so long! This is a self portrait again - I love it.  The gorgeous curtains weren't up yet - going to be taking pics soon where they are! :D

TUMBLR HAS EATED MY BRAINZ!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I've started a tumblr - which I love more than I can actually say.  It's sharing and speaking and crying and laughing and I LOVE IT!!! My blog is pure me - please note NSFW - but if you have a mo stop by and say hi :D  http://ixamxdecadence.tumblr.com/

LADIES AND GENTS I GIVE YOU HLUMANI!!

Please give a warm and welcoming hello to my brand new and CRAZY ADORABLE!!! nephew! I am in love :D  Only took these cos the poor darling kept flinching at the flash.  He was like: Can't a baby just sleep!? LOL! Angel

'I got the joyjoyjoy down in my heart!'

I am stricken with joy, overwhelmed by anticipation so deep it's a flavour on my tongue, a taste at the back of my throat, welling over and over till my sinuses burn with sheer and utter delight in life.  Yes I am aware that the sentence above is a prime example of how not to use a comma but I DO NOT CARE MWAHAHAHAHAHA!!! Why you ask? Whywhywhy?  Because I am happy.  For the first time in a really long time I'm catching glimpses of the gleeful creature I was born to be.  I no longer burn bright and uncomplicated - my colours have thickened, deepened.  I am searing light and blood red depth, tears and laughter like rich, viscous honey-drip.  I am grown and my joy has changed but I've found it again - I can see it and touch again.  Thank you God for this blessing, for this feeling.  I am so grateful to finally be saying goodbye to numbness. And now for the BOOTY DANCE OF GLEEEEEE!!!!

Wanderlust

Are other people every just violently struck by the urge to go - to keep moving till their too exhausted to move another limb.  I want to scour every inch of this planet - I want to see EVERYTHING!! Now I just need bank rolling of some kind. Hmmmm...

These images are from a shoot I did for the Black Accountants Association 25th Anniversary.  I met a lot of amazing people  - people who clawed their way to success and then did not forget their roots.  It was an experience that I have to say strengthened my faith in our ability as individuals to make an actual difference.